Glad today is nearly over.

Charlie had been up most of last night, unable to breathe properly. He couldn't stop coughing and Steve & I were awake for most of the night at one time or another. After beginning to vomit after we got up I rang the doctors to find they couldn't fit him in, all the emergency appointments had gone....3 minutes after they opened the phone line...how do people book them so quickly. We ended up taking him to hospital where they said he had a chest infection and was also wheezing quite badly. They put him on a nebuliser which was awful, he was so brave and sat as good as gold holding the mask over his face (at only 2 I was so proud of him) I think it was me that found it harder watching him struggling to get even little breaths in and out. After the nebuliser he was much better and I took him home. Later on this afternoon he deteriorated rather quickly so Steve & I took him back. The wheezing was worse and the doctor said he was having an asthma attack and put him back on the nebuliser. She did suggest keeping him in, but we said we'd take him home and see how he goes. He's coughing again and beginning to wheeze so I don't know if we will have to take him back. Fingers crossed he gets better. I can't bear to see him suffer, he had a tough start to life and I know he is a little toughie deep down, but I worry about him so much. Steve is so upset, he was asthmatic from birth and feels responsible as it can be heriditary, but I wouldn't ever blame him and neither would Charlie. Little man is stirring again, so I'd best go for now.

Another busy day

Another early start today, and last school run of the week. Took Charlie to meet my mum and sister for coffee at the local Waitrose, had a nice little chat together over a cappucino. Charlie has started trying to say my sisters name, but instead of Natalie it is coming out as Natty, which is quite sweet really. He wanted to go home with Mum, and as she was free today she said she'd have him. Got home to find Steve was ripping out all the old (and rubbish) sealant from around the bath so he could replace it and stop it leaking through onto the kitchen wall. Decided to get on with sorting out the 'Save Our Date' magnets for our wedding, and got as far as opening the pack, before I found other stuff that needed more urgent attention. Letters to write, send, bills to sort and then the milkman arrived. Bit embarrasing as my purse was empty, so will have to pay him next week.

Spoke to my sister about having my niece overnight next Friday, and she said she could as long as she behaved in the meantime....apparantly at Brownies she decided to cover her long blonde hair with soap suds when she should have been washing up! Why?? Who knows, she certainly doesn't!!

Managed to get to see Lucy finish her Cross Country County Comp, she came 2nd in her school for the girls, and for the county girls, she was 46th out of 180. We were so proud of her, and we were clapping so hard and yelling when she crossed the line. We stood with our friends and we were all shouting for our daughters. It was flipping cold there, but was well worth it. Got home just before the heavens opened.

Am so tired now, feel I've hardly stopped all day, Jess & Lucy will be out tomorrow with Dad, so just be 3 of us at home, will try and get as many jobs done as I can, but really need to take some time out too. Hopefully Charlie will sleep tonight and I won't have a repeat of last night when he ended up in our bed. First time in 7wks though, so I shouldn't complain.

Well, will get back to watching Alien, haven't paid much attention so really have no idea whats what.....may choose to have a giggle at the shopping channels instead!

Long & Difficult Day

I should make more of an effort to remember things! I completely forgot I had set up this blog, it was only someone on Twitter mentioning blogging that I remembered! Am so forgetful it is unreal, I know I have a medical reason for it, but sometimes it really gets me down, I try to laugh about it, but every so often it gets a bit too much.

Well, today was a difficult day as I had to go to court as my ex is insisting on access to our girls. Both girls are adamant that they don't want to see him, which I have told him time and time again but he just won't listen. He has emotionally abused them, bullied them and after threating one of them I stopped the contact. He was controlling and emotionally abusive to me, and sitting opposite him in court was so hard, I felt so sick, and dizzy. First part is over though, we now have a 12wk wait for a report from CAFCASS on the girls, and they will talk to us too. Luckily my sister came with me today, and although she wasn't allowed into court, it helped so much to know she was outside waiting. We are due back in court in July and I really hope that will be the end of it all. I really don't know how much I can take.

On a brighter note, I have signed the girls up for Karate lessons which start on April 4th, they are both quite looking forward to it. Lucy is particularly excited! She can't wait to start and was most annoyed she can't start sooner. Jess has agreed to give it a go, but I think at 12, she is at the age where she is not allowed to show any enthusiasm for anything!

Apparantly, my Grandad, who has Alzheimers is getting worse and going downhill, he barely eats and is so thin and drawn I am really concerned for him. He has been ill for about 6yrs, and he is now deteriorating rapidly.

Well, I will leave this for now, am going to pop onto Twitter and see if I can link the two!