Long & Difficult Day

I should make more of an effort to remember things! I completely forgot I had set up this blog, it was only someone on Twitter mentioning blogging that I remembered! Am so forgetful it is unreal, I know I have a medical reason for it, but sometimes it really gets me down, I try to laugh about it, but every so often it gets a bit too much.

Well, today was a difficult day as I had to go to court as my ex is insisting on access to our girls. Both girls are adamant that they don't want to see him, which I have told him time and time again but he just won't listen. He has emotionally abused them, bullied them and after threating one of them I stopped the contact. He was controlling and emotionally abusive to me, and sitting opposite him in court was so hard, I felt so sick, and dizzy. First part is over though, we now have a 12wk wait for a report from CAFCASS on the girls, and they will talk to us too. Luckily my sister came with me today, and although she wasn't allowed into court, it helped so much to know she was outside waiting. We are due back in court in July and I really hope that will be the end of it all. I really don't know how much I can take.

On a brighter note, I have signed the girls up for Karate lessons which start on April 4th, they are both quite looking forward to it. Lucy is particularly excited! She can't wait to start and was most annoyed she can't start sooner. Jess has agreed to give it a go, but I think at 12, she is at the age where she is not allowed to show any enthusiasm for anything!

Apparantly, my Grandad, who has Alzheimers is getting worse and going downhill, he barely eats and is so thin and drawn I am really concerned for him. He has been ill for about 6yrs, and he is now deteriorating rapidly.

Well, I will leave this for now, am going to pop onto Twitter and see if I can link the two!